Throughout my life I have always been obsessed with food. As a young child I never wanted to eat, and my mother made me milkshakes and gave me cookies so that I wouldn’t starve to death. This food drama continued until I was seven years old. At that point, I finally started to like certain foods – and everything changed. To my horror, I started gaining weight.
I discovered that food wasn’t just a substance for survival; instead, it made me feel better for a short while. At times I wish my dislike for food as a young child would have continued.
Through the years I became a Yo-Yo Dieter, losing weight and gaining it back. Reading an article about food obsessions, I learned of a group called Over Eaters Anonymous. They had scheduled meetings near my home. I was always looking for the perfect diet, so I decided to go. That night I found the perfect food plan, which consisted of eating three meals a day and two snacks twice a day. At breakfast I usually had yogurt and cereal with fruit and for lunch and dinner: 3 ounces of protein, 4 ounces of carbs, vegetables, and fruit. The snacks were 2 ounces of protein and fruit. I followed the food plan for ten years and kept the weight off.
Then one day, while out to lunch with friends, I ordered a hamburger with fries and had dessert. It felt so good to eat anything I wanted that I continued through the next three years to enjoy myself. There was only one problem: the numbers on the scale were getting higher. Periodically I went on a diet, but that never lasted for more than two to three weeks.
A year ago, I received a flier in the mail from Weight Watchers and after reading the success stories, I decided to try their food plan. It was easy to follow and I did not have to deprive myself as on other diets. Within six months, I lost the weight gained during the previous three years and felt one hundred percent better. To this day I am still following their plan.
My obsession with food has not disappeared, but a willingness to keep the weight off has made it a little easier. I have learned different techniques to combat the feelings of wanting to binge.
If the cravings are very strong: I take a walk outside, weather permitting; sit down at the table and cut an apple into tiny pieces which take a long time to eat; drink a large glass of water; or brush my teeth – it really helps!
To be honest with you, these techniques do not work all the time and I sometimes have moments when I can’t stop myself from bingeing on crackers, ice cream or peanut butter from the jar. But lately, my cravings for wanting to binge have been occurring less and less.
I find that my feelings of wanting to eat are caused by being stuck in the house, worried about something, or bored. Knowing what triggers the feelings has really helped. I can call a friend, watch a good movie, or discuss what is going on in my life with my daughter or friend.
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2 thoughts on “My Food Journey”
This is a grat article! I also have a love hate relatinship with food. I love food but hate to eat. REcently I started doing Hot yoga and that really has changed my food intake. I am careful of what I eat as it affects what I love to do (yoga) I have started juicing which as been a fun and rewarding experience. I love that I can just have a drink of something and be satisfied for hours. Today I had Avcodo, cucumber and pear. Yum!!! I also love to give you a call when I am feeling off it fills me up with love.
I hate to say it; the love, hate relationship for food has been passed down through our family for generations. I am so proud of you for finding ways to accept your food relationship. Love you Mom